Today is the Day!

I'm part excited, part nervous, part relieved, and part nauseous that my surgery day is finally here. I'm really glad I have an awesome doctor/surgeon, and that her staff has really helped baby step me through all of this. I ask a LOT of questions, lol.

Funny thing about last time I had surgery-my thoughts going into surgery were "Shoot, I forgot my leftovers and water bottle at work" and "I sure hope I don't fart while I'm asleep, my anesthesiologist is pretty hot." That stuff carries over through all the loopy drugs apparently, because when I woke up I would not STOP insisting we go pick up my leftovers and water bottle (like 37 times), and kept asking if I'd farted/pooped during surgery. My DH kept trying to shush me up (esp about the bodily functions to prevent my embarassment), lol. Who knows what will come out of my mouth this time around!

My wonderful, sweet boyfriend Shawn will be there with me as well as his Dad who is in town from Kentucky. Bailey will be thinking about me all emo and depressedly at home. Plenty of prayers and good thoughts for me. To quote Allstate--"You're in Good Hands."

Adios!

Rain Rain Go Away

We finally got the truck today! A bit of running around to credit unions, banks, and the dealership but we got it all squared away this afternoon. We decided to go out for a celebratory dinner, and bag our trip to San Antonio on account of the fact that it'll be raining all weekend long.

After dinner we're JUST about home...literally coming down the hill to the last stop light, and we hear/see the car driving to our right driving too fast. Around the corner it tried to slow down and we could hear it start squeeling, slamming on his breaks unable to stop. He hit us in the back right side, and we fishtailed, swerving up and over medians and sidewalks trying to get control of the vehicle again. Luckily neither of us were seriously injured. My elbow is bruised and hurts from it banging into the door a few times, but we were really blessed that it was just us and the other car involved, and that no one was seriously injured.

So that's the way the monumental car buying/week chose to end. I feel so bad for him--his new toy he's been waiting forever to drive home took a nasty beating. And Karma--did you have to?

*sigh*

A week of lazin' about

I like to plan my vacation time from work around 3 day weekends. Call me cheap, but i like getting an extra day away thrown in there for celebratory purposes.

I've been on vacation this whooooole week. Have I done anything awesome and fun? Nope not really. For the first time ever, I can honestly say I've been bored and I'm ready to be productive again. I finished reading some books, watched some movies, and slept more than any 27 year old physically needs to.

There is still the small possibly that Shawn and I might go on a day road trip down to San Antonio, but it all depends on when this lazy credit union rep calls us back. The road trip is meant to be a "OMG lets go on a road trip in Shawn's fancy new-to-him truck!", but so far it's been more like the waiting game. So we'll see. I'm crossing my fingers because I'm stir crazy right now!! It'd be fun to go do something fun outside the house before I am outside the house--working :(

On another note, I got my surgery scheduled for September 23rd (yikes fast!). The closer it got to the holidays, the more scheduling conflicts I had with work, and the more unavailable my doctor became. So I just went ahead and fit it in where I could. So I'll be back to work for a week and a few days, then out for another few weeks. September is turning out to be the month of nothing getting done!

Quick Update

I was able to get into the Fertility Clinic on a chance cancellation on Friday. It was scheduled as a consultation, and we talked about my history and what our next steps would be. After looking over the medical records that had been sent over, she wanted to do her own ultrasound to determine what type of surgery I would need.

The fibroid is embedded in the uterine wall significantly enough that it will take more invasive surgery to remove. She said that most gynecologists could safely do this surgery, but in hopes of preserving my fertility, it would best to do a laparotomy (open the abdominal cavity) instead of of the laparoscopic procedure. I will have to stay overnight at the hospital, and be off work for a few weeks in recovery. I'm nervous, but I feel really confident in my doctor and I'm glad she'll be doing the procedure.

I struggle with the emotions of wondering if I'll ever be able to bear children. Seeing the future would sure come in handy sometimes, lol.

The stuff that's on my mind

I have "Womanly Issues". Always have, and lately it seems like I always will.

Long and short of it is: I've had problems with my monthly friend since I was probably a teenager. Those issues were kept at bay until my (ex) husband and I decided to try starting our family. When I wasn't conceiving, we found out it was at least partially due to endometriosis. So taddaa--surgery! It was a simple out-patient procedure that caused me to only miss a few days of work. The problem with these "issues" is they tend to come back. And in my case they come back with a vengeance.

I started seeing a new gyno back in June because it felt like my issues were just getting worse and worse, and every month I was in more pain than the month before. Thanks to her, I started getting some answers and headway. A ultrasound showed that I have a 3 cm Cystic Fibroid (non cancerous tumor) inside my Uterus. That's causing some of the problems, but my doctor wanted to run more tests to make sure they were fully diagnosing the problems. So I had an HSG (fancy pants kind of ultrasound) done, which determined that my left Fallopian Tube was completely blocked, and my right Fallopian Tube was partially blocked, and had some bubbles or kinks. That is usually caused by endometriosis, or scar tissue from old endometriosis.

My next step is to go to the Austin Fertility Clinic. I've been trying to set an appointment on my own but I've been having a hard time at it because I'm not trying to actively get pregnant. Apparently that's like their thing...being a fertility clinic and all.... Weird huh? But anyhow, hopefully that all comes together in the next few weeks and I can start meeting with them and finding out when they'll schedule surgery, and confirm that I don't have any pre-cancerous, cancerous, or otherwise abnormal cells related to my "issues".

This has been on mind a lot lately, because of what it could potentially mean. I'm really trying hard to not worry until I know if there's something to be worried about. I miss my family a lot right now, and just the support that comes from having loved ones close by. When I went through all this before, they were close and I was married. Life was a bit "different". It's hard for me to realize that my dreams of being a mother some day are looking rather dismal. I'm very aware that my biological clock isn't running very smoothly. It just kind of puts everything into perspective ya know?

On happier note--my weight loss/excercise activities are paying off. I've lost a total of 11 pounds with Weight Watchers so far. I need to step it up more for sure, and not let other life stuff get in the way. All in all, things really are wonderful and I feel blessed and loved :)