Yay!

I had a half day at work today and decided that I was going to FINALLY get some stuff done for once. Hopefully I didn't burn any bridges/irritate my coworkers when i walked out on time at 2:02pm :o)

I went to the Social Security Admin in Georgetown to get my name changed back to my maiden name. It only took me 3 months, so what! I asked the lady there if she knew if I would have to wait to get my SS Card in the mail or if I could maybe get my new Drivers License today too. She said "Well I know technically you need to wait, cuz this paper isn't a card. But I'll let you keep your card instead of taking it, and then they should do it for you. Just make sure you destroy it in a horribly burny fire so I don't lose my job or something."

So I went to the Texas DPS and Ole'!! They gave me a new license. The only traumatic feelings I experienced from this un-expected joy are: a) I totally didn't do my hair OR put on my makeup. So I will look like death in my picture and b) I meant to practice a sassy new way to sign my name and I didn't. Bummer.

But besides that, the entire experience was very winning!! Now I can do all the rest of the fun stuff like changing my 32 bank account/credit cards, and all my billing stuff. Sigh...oh well :o)

Holidaze

I'm not sure what I should do for the Holiday's yet this year. Last year I was pretty much alone cuz my ex was at work, but there was still the recognition that I had family in town.

I have 1 more day of vacation for the year. I can't have the day off after Thanksgiving cuz my coworker already reserved it so I'll be staying at home. I'm thinking I will create a turkey-shaped paper mâché form, but use turkey sandwich meat instead of paper. Then it will look and smell and taste like the majestic bird and not require me to know how to prepare a full-blown turkey. Shawn also has no family in town, so maybe I'll make turkey mâché for two.

Shawn's going home to visit his family for Christmas with all his fancy vacation days. I have a friend/fake sister who's invited me up to spend the holiday's with them. I don't know if "holidays" include both Thanksgiving and Christmas yet. Here's to hoping that they do.

I hope my family isn't bugged by me not coming to Utah for my Christmas and 1 vacation day. I just don't want to have another super rushed visit home. Plus I really can't afford plane tickets right now.

Small Step for Men...

...Giant Leap for Amykind...

I customized my blog. ***shock***

it feels weird

....to know that I'll probably never see him again. Well I suppose in a city of 1 bazillion people, there is an odd chance that we might run into each other sure. But besides that, it's all finished. I met Spencer at "our storage unit" today after work. It was very short and to the point. All the loose ends had been tied. Perhaps we should have wished each other well, but it felt unecessary and uncalled for to say so. We exchanged only the necessary verbage. There's just no need to wave or hug goobye in this kind of situation.

He looked so weird. It shocked me how different he looked when we had a "meeting" last Thursday, but I was past it today. He had one of those familiar faces that you just can't quite place. At least that's how I chose to look at it. It makes a lot more emotional sense than looking at him like the man I loved for 7 years.

I am way past wondering if he might change his mind and want to come back to me. I feel quite over wanting him to come back. I'm quickly becoming over being bothered by him belonging to someone else. I'm just not quite over the feelings of how badly it hurt to be left and betrayed, and to be so completely shocked like that. You never think it could happen to you, but it can and it did.

In my invisible dayplanner, I've penciled in a trip to the Social Security Administration on Thursday. Yes, I know I said I was going to do that already but I haven't had time. Some day soon after having completed that task, I'm going to the DPS to get a new license. And then I shall officially be Amy Blackham again :o)

My brother gave me some sound advice and told me to determine how I see myself and do my best to define what makes me happy. Here's to that journey.

Tagged :o)

1. Add a comment on this post of a memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you know me briefly or we go way back, just remind me of something that sticks out for you.

2. Next, repost these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's pretty fun to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave a memory about you!