small bit of happiness

I love earrings. Love, love, love them. I like long dangly ones, sparkly ones, and sassy hoops. I love ones that match my outfits, and love when people comment and recognize that I've clearly paid attention to that. Go me! I don't buy super expensive ones. I have maybe 1 or 2 pair that cost enough money to huff and puff over. Price doesn't matter so much to me as having a plethora of earring options.

I've been lazy lately and just worn studs in both of my holes just to save myself .034 seconds during my morning preparations, but I decided that just has to change. I've had a better day by far for the last two days, and I account it almost entirely to accessorizing.

Brain Juice

I use a lot of Brain Juice. I often have a hard time falling asleep at nights because I'm "thinking". Of what, you may ask. Anything and everything. Here are some of the things I'm thinking right now:

*I'm cold. My toes and my nose especially. I was going to borrow aka steal the space heater out of my bosses office since she's on vacation, but it seems like she took it with her. Rats.
*I hope I got the package from my family today. Don't tell them, but I fully intend on opening my presents early. I'll think about re-wrapping them and taking them to Dallas so I'm part of the morning madness, but we'll see.
*I hope the new clothes I bought online come in today. I know I need to do some laundry, but I swear I have 5 1/2 shirts only, and that I just rotate the days I wear them each week. Ugh.
*I can't wait to eat the leftovers I brought for lunch today. I've been in love with this crockpot chicken recipe and I've made it once a week for a few weeks now.
*It smells like chalk in my office. I think it's dust in the heater vents, but it smells like chalk
*I wish my candle wasn't burned down so far so I could light it
*It'll be sad/lonely/weird not seeing Shawn for 5 days
*I'm excited to spend Christmas with the Timiney's!

a penny for my thoughts? yes please

So I found out that my ex-husband is engaged to be married. They've been living together since he moved out last March and I actually expected it would have happened sooner than now. I wonder about so many things. Can a relationship built on dishonesty, infedelity, and lies make it? Our relationship that was built on love, trust, and God didn't.

The divorce was finalized almost six months ago. Is it really any of my business anymore? Was it ever even my business to begin with--probably not. I hate that I still consider myself a hidden fly on their life wall. I have a bad habbit of associating with people that still know about him and what he's up to. The curiosity side of me invites "news", but the emotional-moving-on side of me wants to block it. But they're my friends. I that Junior Highesque "break up by association" where you end up losing friends because romantic relationships change. I've already cut one, honestly unhealthy friendship out of my life that was too heavily involved with Spencer, and I don't want to do that again.

I don't know if, or even how to approach the few people that feed me casual news and ask them to stop. I don't want it to seem like I want it to stop because it bothers/hurts me, but I really don't want to get into this long harangue about my inner most moving on-esque feelings with them.

It finally makes sense!

So lately, I've been getting a lot of random friend invites on Facebook. They're always women in the Austin, TX network. We have no friends in common and I don't know them from Adam. So I ignore them. I've never once noticed any similar details about each of their profiles...

Today one of my friends sent me a message asking for "clarification" about something on my facebook page:

Basic Info
Interested in: Women
Relationship: In a relationship
Looking For: Friendship, Networking
Birthday: July 13, 1982
Hometown: Austin, TX
etc, etc etc.

Now said friend is a recent acquaintance of mine, but he derived from what he thought knew about me that I was interested in Men not Women. He wanted to clarify and bring it to my attention if that was indeed an error. The last time I had a relationship change (married to single), I noticed a day later that it said I was interested in "Women". I thought I must have messed something up on my side, but now I wonder if I've found some sexual preference Facebook Bug!!!

Anyhow, I had a few LOL's about it--hope you all did too. I'll be back to my old self as soon as I can log on to change it

Monday Morning Mayhem

Ok.--so there isn't any mayhem I just really like alliteration. Ok more like I LOVE alliteration.

I need to get 2 Christmas packages out in the mail today. Then I just need to buy presents for Shawn and for the Timiney's and I'll be done. Buying for my ex was always super expensive cuz he always wanted every new gaming system/game out there--and I of course would buy it for him. It's kinda nice not having to do that anymore! I bought myself a few simple things--some new clothes and a new violin case. Since it's not really a surprise, there's no harm in me using them before Christmas either :o)

I'm trying to get all hyped up for what I hope will be a year of sucessful New Life Resolutions (notice how I didn't say New Years?? Yah, I want them to last more than 3mon-1 year). One of the biggest things I need to change are my sleeping habits. I have a handful of resolutions I am aiming for that are severely hindered by my night owlness and my unwillingness to get myself out of bed in the morning:

a) leave early enough so I don't have to take the Toll Road every morning (saves about $75 a month)
b) eat a well-balanced breakfast
c) pack lunch and snacks for work
d) shower AND be ready for work (makeup on instead of hastily applying it in the parking lot before I walk in)
e) get to work on time

See?!! All of those have an unspoken "don't be a lazy, sleepy bum" written in there. My brain doesn't start shutting down until Midnight or later. If I try to go to bed earlier and even at midnight, I still can't shut my brain off and end up tossing and turning till 1am. Every morning I literally wake up at the humanly LAST possible second. I have to be into work by 8am. It takes 30 minutes speeding on the Toll Roads to get to work. I know I can take a shower and become clean in 15 minutes. So what time do I wake up? 7:15. I don't allow for any wardrobe emergencies, missing keys, run away cats, traffic or alien abduction. It starts almost every day on a bad note.

Any suggestions?